On Day 232 of my journaled conversation with my spirit guide, Holly, I posed the following question: What is the original aspect of myself that wants to re-emerge?
Holly: You have always had a connection to Source, and to us, but you shutdown many aspects of yourself to fit in with family and friends. You heard your father speak harshly about people who believed in God, so you developed negative feelings about religion and spirituality. Yet, despite that modeling, there was always an unspoken string that kept you connected to Source. You once even said that you felt you were held together by fraying threads you were afraid were going to break. After the death of your brother, your mother’s dementia, your husband’s open heart surgery, your sister being estranged from your family, and the September 11th tragedy, you had a positive disintegration, and you were invited home to your original self, your default setting. Now you are able to feel the love from within and share it outwardly, rather than trying to grasp it from somewhere outside of yourself and bring it inward. Your original self is recognizing the string of Source that connects you to all that has ever been, and all that has yet to manifest. To be self-loving, as Mark Nepo suggests, is to be all-loving in thoughts and actions. Gratitude and appreciation for what is, for the current moment, is part of the loving heart. Take an opportunity today to see Love in all its manifestations.
I surround myself with meaningful visual metaphors. This piece sits on the counter in my bathroom to remind me of maintaining an open heart, especially during times that challenge my heart and mind. It was designed by Debbie Berrow and made by many loving hands at Bell Pine Art Farm in Creswell, Oregon.
We hope you find many reasons for which to be grateful, compassionate, and kind. Soul Bridge Coaching and Holly (May 14, 2021)
Here I go, taking a leap of faith. A faith in my spirit guide, Holly. We have been in formal communication for more than 20 years, and she is now encouraging me to share my talent in guided communication with others who are interested in spirit guide communication.
Holly shared this message with me on Friday, May 31, 2019. I was having a great deal of angst on that day. It was hard for me to tell if it was my own anxiety or that related to an impending tragedy, which usually brings me great stress. Later that day, a news flash said that 12 people had been killed by a colleague. So there it was, once again, my struggle with clairsentience. I used guided writing to ask Holly and my other guides to help me understand all of this. Here is her response:
“There is a mounting buildup of pressure on your planet. There is a pulling as seen by the political groups around the world. Scapegoats are being used to deal with the rampant fear of those in power as well as those who are powerless. The anxiety you feel is not recognized by others as they may be disassociating from their bodies through self-medicating, over-eating, turning a blind eye, and over-indulging in media. On the other hand, you have come to this planet ready to feel deeply. And that is what you are doing. Now that you are exquisitely sensitive and aware of your existence within a bubble, it is time for you to create an environment of joy and calm awareness that has a knowing without the pain. This has been a multi-step process, and the next step will move you to nirvana. This must not be pushed, and no drugs. This will happen through a greater awareness that you can be an observer and transmitter of Love. The Universal Energy (God to some people) does not suffer when humans experience suffering. That Energetic Source is always available with Light and Love, and so, too, must you. You are allowing the sensitive human aspect of yourself to be a lightning rod for the disharmony and pain of your planet. Now it is time to shift your frequency to the truth of your connection to Universal Energy. You, and all souls on Earth, have a choice to acknowledge and experience your Love and Light. It will take time for your awareness to shift, but the discomfort you are feeling is the butterfly who can no longer be confined to the chrysalis. We invite you to expand your bubble and proceed to the end of this Earthly journey in the truth of your Divine nature.”
Much love, Dear Friends. Soul Bridge Coaching and Holly (May 13, 2021)